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tmL ish the BIG DAY! My goodness. haha. time reali flies. Not long ago, we were juz sitting for our papers. Now is the results. OMG! i m feeling the stress liao. haish. Wat if i flunk my humanities? Wat if my highest grade is oni a B3? Wat if i fail eng? Wat if... Haish.. so many "wat if.."s passing thru my brain.. i M so stress out.. haiz haiz haiz... okay.. dun tok abt these stupid tings.. i shall leave all my worries to 2 pm tmL..=)

Well..well.. sian..i haf absolutely nth to do..*yawn* perhaps..i shld pop back to slp..haha..tata.. signing off..~xIn

230205

Okay. I juz reach hm. haha. Very tired. Had a long weary dae todae. haha. well. to begin it off. i brought minglin. zufar. n fungi to crash pJc. haha. miss them so much.

well. hmm. then. todae wus IETL dae. standing for erm..i forgot. oPps. haha. whu cares? hmm.. then they expect all J1 to stay back till 5pm.. what the hell lorh. haha. but then again. i did a BAD ting todae. =Pp me, evon, kok peng, yifang n yvonne tried climbing the 2 plus metres high fences. CUZ the stupid security guard refuses to let us out! well. evon, given her tough physique, she did it without ane sweat. kok peng managed to sneak out thru the main gate. haha. left me n the other two gals. we tried to climb. haha. yifang got stuck on top. cuz her skirt wus hooked by the fences. then kok peng, wanting to b the hero, climbed back in to help out. haha. well. hmm. then. the wae he helped wus lyke. ermermerm. kinda sensitive? haha. but nvm lah. else yifang will b stilstuck up there liao. haha. well me? i cldnt get ova. end up wif several scratches. haha. yvonne too. her injuries were worse. haha. well. i noe it wus a silly act. but it wus damn fun lorh. haha. kinda exciting. MY FIRST TIME. being so notti. =Pp

hmm. okay. juz now before i came here. i went to read one of my klassmates' blog. well. i noe i pissed her off. due to my heck care attitude in doing hwk. well. i simply cant help it rite? when i juz haf too much on my mind n no one to tok to. i simply dun haf ane mood to do my work. wat the hell. okok. i m in the wrong. but if u were me, perhaps u will understand hw awful i m feeling nowadaes. sorrie for pissing you ppl.

Results cuming out soon. dun whether to b happie or not. haha. rite now i m very confused. Sum ppl are worried tt their results mite fail their hopes. of cuz i m worried abt tt. but i m more worried abt the path i m going to take after the results are out. well. i dun wana choose a path tt i mite regret in the future. i m so so so so confused=( haish

well. todae wus okay. Xcept for sum unhapi stuffs here n there. haish. take care pplz. n gd luck for ur o lvl results.=)

190205

hmm. Juz reach hm not long ago. Had mass J1 bbq in sch. haha. Kinda enjoyed myself. hmm. Din reali eat much. haha. On diet mahx. Geez. Been growing fatter after vdae. Been eating too much chocs liao. Kekex. Cant resist the temptation mahx. I love chocs!! Chocs iz my life. Heheh..=P

oH yAr. todae i finali finali finali started learning the guitar properly. Been too lazy liao. haha. i luv my guitar. haha. my "hubby" leh. haha. well. nan de tt i willing to learn patiently. haha. i am amazed by myself too. haha. HOWEVER. i m nt going to bring my "hubby'" to sch liao. todae one of my klassmates fool ard till one of the strings snapped. wad the hell lorh. i wus so heartbroken lorh=( *sobx* haish. so damn violent de my klass ppl. not all lah. haha.

hmm. yupyup. Juz now gt mass dance. woohoo. so fun. kip changing dance partners. well. all the bpians were juz so enthu. haha. bPians roX. haha. oh yar. SoonkEng n hongyun crash my sch. all the guys did the bp cheer. n bp bay. N though it wus so noisy. i cld still hear soOnkeng. he is damn loud lorh. -_-" hmm. had lotsa fun todae seh. haha. mass dance rox. haha. =P Saw ermhmm dance wif jenN wor. haha. gd luck. hope to get gd news SOOn. =)

hmm. well. results gona b out nxt week. yay! so happie. =) duno why. i m juz crazy nowadaes. Forgive me bahx. haha. =P hmm. gona go slp now. very slpy seh. very tired todae. had a violent pe lesson. plus mass dances. i m so dead. haha =P

tata ~xIn

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hmm. Long long time nv blog. haha. well. been very sick. N been in n out of hospital for bloodtests n stuffs. Thank God. I m still alive. Everyting iz fine now. Haha. Except tt i reali gt freaked out when it cumz to needles n stuffs. I hate them in fact! haha.

Alright. This entry. I wld very much wan to address to my bestest fren, Raine. Hey gurl. I m veryveryvery sorry. Erm. To b honest wif you, i seriously haf nv seen him more than juz a gd fren. Truly. well. as much as rejection wld do him more harm than acceptance, but reali, i hafta b fair to myself and to him rite? My heart belongs to sumone else. I cant juz for the sake of nt hurting him n juz accept him when i m stil in luv wif sumone else rite? =/

well. Juz now i read his entry on you, my dear gal. See? You does exist in his life. You played a more crucial part than i did. In fact, you did much more than i did. You did more than you shld help. Evryting tt you did for him wus out of love, i tink? hey, it's juz a confession. nt tt i take it lightly. hmm. well, i dun tink you shld take it tt hard too. Fight for your happiness, my dear gal. I can see tt you are stil in love wif him. Y giv him up to me? nonono. i dun wana see tt happening k? well. a relationship build up wif frenship as a strong foundation is surely stronger than a mere normal relationship. DUn giv up k? Gambate =) oH yar. n happie Vdae.

hmm.okay. juz rmb. VDae is cuming wor. haha. everyone seems to b busy wif getting gifts for their loved ones wor. last reminder ler wor. oni left a dae to vdae ler. hmm. me? i spending it either alone or wif frenz. pathetic. haha. but nvm lah. whu said vdae is oni for lovers? haha. =P okiex. well. happie vdae to all! Mae all couples haf evalasting love. takecare

Signing off...~xIn

~ chIneSe nEw yEar evE ~

happiE new year..haha..kinda early to haf tt greeting hor? hee.. todae went back bP. haha So fuN. see so many ex-bpIans. Sumhow, the guys changed most huh? Sum grown fatter. pPL lyke jiawEi gain weight until i almost canot recognise him. haha. nt that he now very fat lah. but he reali look diff. haha. Sum grown taller. haha. oH ya. Seen alot of new hairstyles. Mogu wif his Spiked hair. hmm. i dun lyke it. haha. still prefer the mushrOom heaD. haha. yAngOu wif his kinda long hair. weird. instead. he look beta wif spiked hair. HE DUN BELIEVE me!! arrgH! oh yar. BEST: weiyang.. haha.. he dyed his hair. brown isit? very nice lorh. suits him man.=)

let me tink stil gt wat arh? hmm.. this yr new yr celebration is lyke concert lidat. gt SHE. gt SHIN. haha. woOotz. bUt quite nice oso.=) then oh yar. of cuz we din forget our bP cheer. n Bp bAy. hur hur. =P well.. todae reali had fun. =)

I am sorry, raine. reali reali sorrie.

050105

Seriously, i dunoe wat to blog. Todae iz a sad sad sad n awfuL dae for me. hmm. since last nite, i woke up wif a nitemare n my forehead boiling lyke hell. Den, i cldnt get back to sLp. Itz nt mainly cuz of the fever. But the content of the nitemare. I cldnt rmb the details vividly. But sumhow the nitemare brought back memories. Memories, tt hurtz me to b reminded of. haish. Dun feel lyke toking abt these stupid tings rite now. i still hafing a high fever. Very tongku lorh. =(

Hmm. now the weather lyke preparing for a downpour lidat. The wind. Cold n merciless. haha. i shivering lyke duno what. even dough i haf my jacket on. haish.

Boring lah. Todae went for choir early in the morn even though i am seriously sick. haha. stubborn hor? Yarh. That iz me. Hee. well. i tot it wld b beta to go out than to cope at hm n rOt. haha. well. i m disappointed at pJc choir. it sux. wat to do? haha. sian. i dun feel lyke going to sch liao. itz so nt FUn.=(

well to end it off. i still feel very lost. I duNo wat to expect... when can my pain end? >.<

010105

hmm. sian lah. sian arh. i m sOooOoo stressed! stress. stress. stress. stress. stress. stress. stress. stress. stress. stress. stress. stress. stress. stress. stress. damn stress out lorh. I miss secondary sch life!! haish. everyone wus so much so happier then. well including me. hee. haish. i reali miss life then. now everydae lyke so depressed lidat. haish. i TRIED to b happie. but. duno why. juz cant b reali tt happie. itz lyke i hafta force myself to be happie lidat. arrgh!=(

hmm.. as MRS. BENNY request. haha.. kidding. itz my own idea. i wana continue to write my thanksgiving list. haha. =Pp

yupz. next iz BENNY..diz..oni raine can call.. haha.. normal pplz lyke me call.. dun haf the effect n the meaning liao mahx.. heez. hmm. this guy. i gt alot of tings to sae abt him. but truely, i duno wher to start. haha. Well, in an indirect wae, he taught me how to cherish life. By setting a real bad example in my opinion. hmm. this guy. born shy by nature. haha. hmm. raine stil rmb last yr VDAE mahx? very memorable bahx. haha. You two reali make a great couple lorh. haha. well. how to sae leh? we were great crapping buddies long time ago. haha. cld crap abt almost aneting under the sun. BUT then OF CUz, we werent as close as raine n him lah. haha. =Pp hmm. now. trying to get back to normal lorh. hmm. this guy oso showed me the bad effect of DIETING. wah liew. he is damn skinny lorh. still rmb mah matt? well. Benny will always b a gd gd fren to me always no matter wat. =)

hmm..next.. how can i forget this cute cute little guRl?? ceLest!!! haha.. this little chiobu is already 17 now. ahha..older than me wor. tsktsktsk. but behaviour wise..ermhmm..*coughs violently* mismatched?? haha. my close fren toO. we can go crazy together. tok cock tgr. haf bdae bashes on each other. haha. yarh. we are a crazy couple. =Pp hmm. oh yar. she noes alot of tings abt me. haha. thanks for lending a listening ear wheneva i reali feel stressed out. haha. thanks for helping me kip secrets. thanks thanks my dearest gal.=) oh yar. muz grow up yea? haha. canot always so crazy de. haha. well.. thanks for being my gd gd fren for the past two yrs. though we oni gt reali close during last yr. haha. =) take care ya? luv ya lotsa. =) *muackx* see ? i so gd to u.. haha..

hmm.. thatz all i can tink todae ler. very tired lah.. shall end it here for todae. hmm. duno why recently i kip wondering wat iz the meaning of living so aimlessly. I m juz lyke a zombie. All lost. =(